This post is kind of a Part 2 (yesterday’s post was Part 1). I’ve been thinking more and more on what I want out of life and out of my writing career in particular. Today, I was eliminated from the Self-Published Fantasy Blog Off, which leads me to more thinking. Any hopes of a near-future writing career were dependent on success in the competition. That obviously didn’t happen, but that doesn’t mean I should give up.
But I think it may also be a sign that I need to find balance in my life again. I’ve put a lot into writing, to the point that it has almost become an obsession. That’s the surest way to burn out. I need to dial things back a bit and approach writing from the standpoint of having fun again. All this worrying about the success of my writing career has completely killed my writing productivity, oddly enough.
I also think this could help me do better. The more fun I have writing, the more fun my readers will have reading, and that’s the most important thing to me.
This is a very good and honest reflection. I know exactly what you mean when it comes to worrying about success. As writers, especially indie/self-pub writers, we put a lot of pressure on ourselves to be successful (it legitimizes our crazy self-publishing schemes, right?), but it can turn our writing time into something that is less than fun (all that pressure, aaaah!). I try to remember Ray Bradbury’s advice: ignore the money or the prestige and write for joy.