Writing, Depression, and Being Realistic

I know I’ve been rather quiet around here lately. That’s both for good reasons and some perhaps not-so-good reasons. On the good end, May was a productive writing month for me. On the bad end, depression has reared its ugly head once again.

Depression has been a hot topic on the internet in recent days, after the suicides of some high-profile people. It has always been a major part of everything I do. I’ve struggled with depression since the age of ten (so that’s 18 years at this point).

In my case, I struggle specifically with bipolar disorder. It’s predominantly depressive in my case, and the manic side is well-controlled on medication (better-controlled than the depressive side at any rate). Because of these struggles, I am not always as productive as I’d like to be.

To those who are following me, you’ve seen that I’ve been keeping a pretty rapid release schedule, releasing a book every three or four months. So far, I’ve been able to keep that schedule, but I’m starting to feel stressed about meeting these self-imposed deadlines.

And that’s how I’ve realized I’m going about this the wrong way. Writing has always been an escape for me. Since I began self-publishing, though, it has turned into yet another thing to cause me stress. That’s not what I want out of my writing career going forward. I need to find a balance. Some days, I simply don’t have it in me to write or edit. Trying to keep a consistent writing habit makes it feel like a chore rather than something I enjoy doing. If writing becomes like a chore, I’ll lose my will to keep doing it.

So I’m going to be dialing back my efforts. Some people can handle the rapid-release treadmill. I’m not one of them. I have my limitations, and I’ve recognized that. I’m no longer going to beat myself up because I’m not being as productive as I want.

We can all be our own worst critics, and that’s even more the case for those of us who struggle with depression. And we need to call it what it is. It is abuse. If I said the same things about someone else that I said about myself, it would be emotional abuse. And I’d never do that to someone else, so why should I do it to myself?

In the end, life is about finding as much happiness as you can no matter what obstacles are thrown at you. Focusing so much on my self-publishing career has been a rewarding experience in many ways, but it has also driven me crazy at times.

Once, I thought that embarking on a writing career would make everything feel better, but even if you’re doing what you love (if only part-time), you can still struggle with depression, and sometimes that thing you love simply makes it worse. I have to do what’s best for me, and what will ultimately be best for my readers. At the rate I’ve been going, I’ve been on the edge of burning out, and there’s no telling whether I would come back from that.

So, if it takes me six months to release a book instead of three, or if it even takes longer, that’s not the end of the world. I have to find the right balance. I hope you all can be patient with me. I’ll try to be better about keeping everyone updated. Thanks for reading.

The Gilded Empire: An Update

I’m happy to report that I’ve been finding the time again to do some editing on The Gilded Empire. I’m also happy to report that the editing process is going very well.

I will not hit my initial deadline for the end of April, but I’m confident I can have it ready sometime during the month of May.

I’m really excited about this book because I feel it’s the best in the series so far. Empire of Chains started out as a pretty traditional fantasy. The Shadowed Land threw a few new wrinkles into that more traditional setup. The Gilded Empire takes the series in strange and unexpected directions, and it includes some of my favorite scenes in the entire series.

If you haven’t read Empire of Chains yet, I encourage you to give it a try. It’s only $0.99, or you can read it for free with Kindle Unlimited. I still expect to have the entire series released by the end of the summer, so it’s the perfect time to jump in.

A Slight Change in Plans

I’ve decided to make a small change with my editing process and publishing schedule.

First, I’ll address the editing process. I’m currently hard at work revising The Gilded Empire, book 3 of World in Chains. I’m not sure when I’ll finish editing it, but I still think I can get it out there this spring. That may be delayed, however, because of the changes I’m making. Instead of revising just book 3, I’m also going to do some work on book 4 before, The Winds of Time, before releasing The Gilded Empire.

I don’t anticipate this taking that long. It’s mostly to refresh myself on all the craziness that happens in the fourth book before finishing up my edits of the third. This is necessary so that I deliver two books that don’t contradict one another. I did veer a bit away from my original plan in the fourth book, and I need to make sure those changes are reflected in the third.

I may end up doing something similar with the second and third books of Sunweaver. It’s one of the dangers of writing more by the seat of your pants. You can come up with some amazing twists you’d never think of while outlining, but it can make things a bit messy when it comes time to revise. That’s why I prefer writing an entire series before publishing any of it. I’m hoping I can get better at planning, though.

 

Now, on to the publishing schedule. I think it’s a better idea to publish the final two books of World in Chains before returning to the second and third books of Sunweaver. Part of this is my desire to get a finished series out there. Another part is that the worlds of World in Chains and Sunweaver are loosely connected. Anyone who’s finished The Shadowed Land and read Sunweaver might have noticed this.

The second book of Sunweaver does contain very minor spoilers for the ending of my World in Chains series. I don’t think this would result in anyone enjoying the ending of World in Chains any less, but I know some readers don’t like anything to be spoiled.

Personally, I think it can be enjoyable either way. If you read book 2 of Sunweaver, you’ll know that a certain character from World in Chains has survived the events of the series, but you won’t know how. So it’s a matter of which you’d prefer as a reader. Do you want to worry for the life of this character, or are you okay figuring out the mystery of how they end up in a completely different world?

In the end, I don’t think it’s a problem to read the series in whatever order you wish. I just thought I’d get the information out there and update everyone on why I’m changing my publishing schedule a little bit.

Based on these changes, I’d expect The Gilded Empire around April and The Winds of Time around July. After that, Fireweaver will probably come out around October and Sunlord near the beginning of 2019.

I may be able to speed up this schedule, but even these dates are tentative. There are a lot of other things on my plate between work and school and family commitments, and I can make no promises.

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I’ve finished the proofread of Sunweaver!

,I can now say with great pleasure that I will soon unleash another book upon the world. Tonight, I finished the proofread of Sunweaver, the first book in a new epic fantasy trilogy. This book has been with me for a few years now. In fact, I wrote most of it way back in 2014. Needless to say, it has been through many revisions to become what it is now.

The best news is that I’ve also written the other two books in the trilogy. That means the wait should not be long before you can read the entire trilogy.

I’m not abandoning my World in Chains series either. I will continue working on the third and fourth books in the series. I’ve written them, but they haven’t seen extensive revisions and editing just yet. The third book of World in Chains should be my next release. Look for it sometime in the spring.

Now, back to Sunweaver…

The coverĀ  I got for this one is absolutely stunning, thanks to the great artists at Deranged Doctor Design.

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The pre-order should be up on Amazon shortly. Once again, I am also enrolling the book in Kindle Unlimited, so if you have a subscription, you can read it for free.

It’s scheduled to release on January 11th. I hope you enjoy it. I know I’ve enjoyed writing it.

 

I’ve finished the first draft of Godchild.

I finally finished the first draft of Godchild, the second book of The God War’s Chosen, which I expect to be a trilogy. I really don’t think I’ll have enough material left for two more books. I may end up with a slightly longer book, but I’m okay with that. The first two books in the series are relatively short for epic fantasies.

I’ve been working on this first draft on and off since June of 2017. Normally, I like to do the initial drafting process in a month or two. Six plus months is much longer than I like. Obviously, I had other distractions. I wasn’t even close to writing every day.

But it’s done, and that’s all that matters. I’ll probably take a short break from drafting now and turn my focus to getting Sunweaver ready for publication. It’s the first in a trilogy, so I want to make sure it’s the best it can be. It’s very close, and I anticipate releasing it before the end of the month.

As for The God War’s Chosen, I suppose I should describe this series a bit. It’s a gunpowder fantasy with a lot of magic. The gunpowder aspects show up a lot in the first book, and while they’re still there in the second, the magic starts to play a much more central role.

The two primary settings for the first book, Watersong, are a tropical island nation and a desert nation. These are very much a departure from what I’ve written previously, and that’s a good thing. When you get into the second book, you’ll start to see how this series is connected loosely to both World in Chains and Sunweaver.

Like Brandon Sanderson, I have an entire universe in which I write my stories. They are all connected to some degree, but I will always strive to write each series so that you can read it without reading anything else. I don’t want to intimidate readers with some crazy reading order. I may give a recommended reading order at some point (once I have more books out), but it is not necessary to read any one series before another.

Some of my future series may not be as strongly connected as my first three. I don’t want to risk getting repetitive with some of the story elements.

Also, as I stated in my last post, I have not yet determined what series I’ll write after I finish The God War’s Chosen. It may be something set in a new world, or I may finally pull enough ideas together to write sequel and prequel series in the same world as World in Chains.

As always, thanks for reading. If you have Kindle Unlimited and want to give Empire of Chains a chance, it’s free with your subscription. Even if you don’t have KU, the price is only $0.99. And if you enjoy it, please do sign up for my mailing list so that you’ll be the first to know about new releases and sales. There are links for both the mailing list and my books over in the sidebar on the right side of the website.

2017: Year in Review (and looking forward to 2018)

Though I would love to have some snazzy name for this (like the State of the Sanderson), I”ll have to settle for a boring description. What can I say? Titles are hard.

In this post, I’m going to look back on the highs and lows of 2017, and then I’ll look forward to what I intend to write and publish in 2018.

I published Empire of Chains at the end of June. It was my first published novel, and it was a terrifying experience. Exhilarating but terrifying. Since then, the roller coaster of emotions has calmed down, and now I can look back on things from a better, more objective place.

I can’t say I did incredibly well in my first six months as a published author. I certainly sold a few books (and even got a few good reviews), but I’m far, far from becoming a household name. And that’s okay. I went into this with basically no expectations. In many ways, my meager sales and page reads so far have exceeded my expectations. I’m approaching my writing career as a slow build. Everyone hears about the overnight successes, but for every overnight success, there are probably fifty writers who started out slowly and just kept writing and publishing and improving with every book. Determination is the name of the game, and I intend to keep this thing going.

After all, it’s heartwarming to know that even a few people have read and enjoyed your books. Universal acclaim would be great, but that’s never going to happen.

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So I weathered the initial storm after publication, and I got hard to work editing the next book of my World in Chains series: The Shadowed Land. Editing it took longer than I anticipated. Initially, I wanted to release The Shadowed Land at the end of September, but it happened more toward the end of October.

Between work and school and family commitments, I can’t write every day. That’s not the end of the world for me, as long as I don’t go too long between writing. When I have a day with a good time slot for writing, I can write a lot in that time slot. That allows me to make up for missed days. I can also get editing done on some of those days I don’t write.

If you’re wondering how my year broke down in terms of writing, here’s a quick rundown.

In January, I finished the first draft of The Winds of Time, the final book of my World in Chains series. (For those wondering, that does mean the entire series is complete. I prefer to write an entire series before publication due to the fact that I often make changes to my plans as I go along. It’s easier to keep things consistent if I write the entire series and then go back to edit and publish).

I spent February, March, and April writing the first draft of Fireweaver, the second book in my Sunweaver series.

May saw a lot of work on Sunlord, the third and final book in my Sunweaver series. I also devoted some time to writing the first draft of The Broken Sky, the first book in another series I’m really excited about. I haven’t quite solidified where that series is going, so it’s been put on hold for the moment.

In June, I finished the first draft of Sunlord and did a little more writing of The Broken Sky. I also wrote part of the first chapter of Godchild, the second book of a series I’ve titled The God War’s Chosen.

July, August, and September saw more work on Godchild. I also spent a lot of this time editing The Shadowed Land to get it ready for publication.

October was devoted solely to editing The Shadowed Land.

In November and December, I’ve returned to Godchild. Right now, I’m just about to reach the long action sequence at the climax, so it’s looking good.

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Now, that brings me to my plans for 2018. Please keep in mind that these are tentative dates. Whether a project is ready before or after these dates is due to a lot of factors.

First, I’m looking toward a January release of Sunweaver, the first book in my Sunweaver trilogy. I’m currently over halfway through the final draft and proofread, and it’s going quite smoothly, so I’m not anticipating too many issues with it.

To begin the year, I’ll focus on finishing that proofread and finishing the first draft of Godchild. After that, I’ll turn my attention to writing the first draft of Endlord (which I hope is the final book in The God War’s Chosen). I will also make time to edit The Gilded Empire (book 3 of World in Chains). I’d like to have that ready for publication by the end of March.

After this point, my plans become a lot more nebulous. Firstly, it depends on whehter I can finish The God War’s Chosen in three books. If it takes four books, that will add a significant amoun of writing time for that series. That won’t really affect my immediate publishing plans, but it may cause delays down the road.

Since I’m releasing Sunweaver in January, I’d like to release Fireweaver in either May or June. I’d also like to fit in The Winds of Time (book 4 of World in Chains) sometime in August or September. I will then hopefully follow that up with Sunlord in November or December. If I can stick to this plan, both my World in Chains series and my Sunweaver series will be published by the end of 2018.

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So what’s next?

As far as writing goes, I have a few candidates for my next series. Obviously, I’ve started work on The Broken Sky, the first book of a series that features floating islands in the sky, airships, and lots of magically-powered technology (or as any Final Fantasy VI fan would call it, Magitek). I have some general ideas of what I want to do with it, but I need to do a bit more planning before I’m ready to continue with it. I know who my characters are, and I have a decent grip on the worldbuilding. Plot is the part I’m struggling with at the moment.

Another candidate is The Fallen Throne, the first book of a series I’ve titled The Gates of Chaos. Again, I’m pretty solid on the characters and the world, but there are a lot of gaps in the plot that I need to figure out before I can move on with it.

Then there’s a book I’ve titled The Warden’s Gate. It’s the first book of a series I’ve titled The Sundered World. It’s one I’m really excited about because it takes some inspiration from The Wheel of Time, one of my all-time favorite series. The tough part is taking inspiration from such a classic series without imitating it too much.

There are a number of other projects I’ve had in some form for a while. These are mostly young adult and middle grade projects, which I’m a bit hesitant about. Not because I don’t think I can right them. It’s more a question of whether there’s a market for them. Middle grade can be an especially tough task as a self-published author.

And then there are projects that are really in their infancy. At some point, I want to write more stories set in the same world as World in Chains. When I do write these stories, I will write them so that readers can use any series as an entry point into the world. There will obviously be some bits that will be more meaningful for longtime readers, but when I write these, I intend to have different main characters, with the main characters from World in Chains possibly serving supporting roles.

But this is a long way down the road, and I may come up with some new ideas I like even more than the ones I have. Due to all these factors, I can’t commit to any type of publishing schedule beyond 2018.

If things go really well with the rest of The God War’s Chosen, I may be able to fit the first book, Watersong, into my timeline toward the end of the year. But I can’t be sure about this. I don’t want to make promises I can’t keep.

If you’ve been reading this long, thank you. As always, if you want to keep updated on my new releases, you can sign up for my mailing list. I don’t send out very many newsletters, so don’t worry about your inbox getting clogged. The signup form is in the sidebar on the homepage.

Again, thank you for reading, and may the new year bring you all kinds of happiness.

Things are looking good for Sunweaver.

Today, I returned to editing Sunweaver, and it’s looking like I might be able to release it earlier than I originally anticipated. I previously did a lot of editing work on this one back when I was pursuing an agent and a publisher, so it doesn’t need much work before it’s ready for publication.

I have a few changes I have to make based on what happens in the second and third books, but those aren’t major changes.

I’m already 11% through what I expect to be the final draft and proofread, and I look forward to getting this one out there for the world to read.

While I love my World in Chains series, I think I love this one even more. As a reminder here’s the cover for Sunweaver.

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Cover Reveal: Fireweaver

I’ve actually had this cover for a while. I’m not sure why I haven’t revealed it yet. This is for the second book in my Sunweaver series. Look for the first book, Sunweaver, to be released around the end of February.

I’m still working on the third and fourth books of World in Chains. At this point, I’m expecting the third book, The Gilded Empire, to be ready toward the end of June.

At the moment, a four-month release schedule seems like it might work best for me. That would mean three books a year, which seems reasonable to me.

Okay, enough rambling. Here’s the cover.

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I have finished the proofread of The Shadowed Land

In more exciting news, I’ve finished the proofread of The Shadowed Land. I anticipate releasing the book on Halloween, which is also my birthday. For now, it will only be in e-book form. The print version should come at a later date.

I’m excited to get this out there. Though it has only been four months since I released Empire of Chains, it almost feels like an eternity. Now the second book will be out for those of you eagerly anticipating it.

I have finished the fourth draft of The Shadowed Land.

With the completion of this draft, now I have only proofreading and formatting left before I can publish The Shadowed Land, the second book (out of four) in my World in Chains series.

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As a reminder, here’s the cover for The Shadowed Land.

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